Just got back my progress report !
im sooo happy !
For the first time in my secondary 2 life , i didnt get U grade at all !
i told my love ones with excitement !
And both of them were happy for me !
Ahaa !
third in class !!!
wee !!
im so gonna prove to my family that im the clever one among my brothers !
and guess what , i gt detention today !
fucked up man !
But it was worth it .
atleast i did not waste my time .
i studied frm 2 35 pm until 5 pm !
For only two subjects that is maths and science ..
that stupid chin !
Sheeesshh !

7:02 PM

Well , im happy with him .
and a few days back , we spent alot of time together .
Such as we took pictures together , we watched movies and all stuff .
Seriously , no one had make me smile all the way .
every morning , when i come to school , my face will always look very moody .
But now , i dont know why , i am always smiling .
Although im with my superman , i cant deny that i still have feelings for another guy . which had change my life too .
this days , i am always thinking of him .
i really dont want him to be att with other girl .
But , how selfish can i be ?
its his life and i cant stop him frm doing things .
i am only his SISTER .
not more than that .
i miss him .
i really do .

6:33 PM

Ahahahhaa !
once again , i havent been loggin in .
too busy .
i hate staying at home okay !
Shes being unfair !
and that makes me feel really terrible .
Whats the point of getting high marks and being one of the top student in class when no one feels proud of my achievements ?
she always make me do things that my brother wants .
Mann , how unfair !

6:04 PM

just dont ask me about this .
Titis lah lagi airmata ini .
mengapa ?
setiap kali kamu hadir dalam hidup in satu persatu ,
airmata ku tidak berhenti henti menitis .
kehadiran kalian semua cuma membuat hati ini terluka .
Terluka .
yar , mungkin aku gembira sekarang tapi , keraguan dan keresahan di hati ini tetap akn bermain di dalam hati ini .
Namun , kehadiran mu , merubahkan segalanya .
tidak pernah seorang lelaki hadir dalam hidup ini dan melayani diri ini sebaik dirimu .
tapi , adakah ianya akan berakhir ?
ya , aku tahu ,
mana mungkin ia tidak akan berakhir .
semua nya akan pergi satu hari nanti walaupun kau tidak mahu .
you attached , you will end up breaking up .
you married , you will end up divorce or die one day .
nothing last forever .
jangan lah kamu pinta untuk putar balik masa kerana ianya tidak guna .
bukan sahaja ianya tidak akan berlaku tapi ,
ia juga cuma akan membawa kesesalan .
REGRETATION !
kesesalan kerana , semua ini adalah lumrah hidup kita .
walau bagai mana kamu benci akan hidup mu , hidup harus di terus kan .
dan , meskipun aku telah membuka hati ini hanya untuk diri mu ,
tidak semestinya kamu bisa saja menghancurinya .
jangan lah kamu menyakiti hati ini .
seandainya saja aku tidak mempunyai sembarang perasaan , tidaklah aku merasakan kesakitan , keperitan , kepedihan dan juga kekesalan hati ini .
aku menyesal kerana jatuh cinta dengan diri mu .
kerna aku tahu aku akan kecewa pada satu hari.
namun , tidak guna aku menyesal kerana , apa yang berlaku tidak akan putar balik .
mungkin , aku hanya harus bersabar dan pikir secara positif .

6:32 PM

heyy ,
its a long time since i log in .
a lot of things had happen in my life .
both bad and good things .
the bad things are ,
i cant remember !
muaahhaaaa !
seriously , ive decided to forget all the bad things that had happen in my life this past few days .
the good thing is ,
i am leading a happy life right now .
with my superman .
and seriously ,
i dont wanna lose him because losing someone that we love had happen to me alot of times.
Although i know that getting involve in relationships do have the concequences.
and i dont want to lose a guy in my life again.
being in love makes me feel wonderful .

9:44 AM

ahh !
i hate my life !
man ! everything seems different rite now !
yeaahh !
today , all the way , i keep saying alot of vulgarities !
actually not only today laa , but a few days back too !
to my friends , im sorry bcos you were the victims !
i seriously dont know what to do !
everything or anything i did , seems wrong !
WHY ?!
This really sucks !
i feel like crying rite now .
what i just need now is ..
a HUG from a GUY !
i want it , i want it , i want it !
OKAY !
i miss the day i spent with him ..
but he too hurt me .. as in ..
DEEPLY !
i hate the way it is rite now ...
No ones there for me . !

9:52 PM

I was hurt again . why ? why me ? this question often play in my mind .
when i heard from your friend that you were att , i was really hurt .
my tears started to roll down , but , i stop them , i dont want my friends to know that i was hurt .
Just now(1 aug 08) , i saw you with her . you werelying down on her lap . i tried to to control myself from crying . and i did it . although it really hurt inside my heart . i cant really take it . guys always came into my life and break my heart .
why ? why ? why ?
does it feel good to hurt someone ? huh ?
and my family sucks okay !

8:33 PM