Everlast girl

keliru .

2008-12-12T12:18:00.004+08:00

aku keliru .
adakah kau mempunyai sembarang perasaan terhadap diri ku ?
apakah sebabmu memimpin tangan ku ?
hanya untuk bersuka ria ?
adakah itu sebab mu ?
aku takut kau akan mengecewakan hatiku .
aku tidak tahu .
tidak tahu .
tidak tahu !!!!!
aku keliru !
terlalu keliru !!!

Bintang .

2008-11-30T15:54:00.004+08:00

Wahai bintang , bisakah kau menunggu diri ini ?
Inginku datang dengan seorang insan yang ku sayang untuk melihat keindahan mu bintang .
Tapi , kapan ?
kapan kah aku bisa melihat mu bintang ?
persoalan ini sentiasa bermain di fikiranku .
Kapan kapan kapan dan kapan .
Namun , akan ku tunggu dan tetap tunggu dengan penuh kesabaran .
Kerna aku tahu aku akan melihat mu bintang walaupun lambat .
Bintang , tunggulah diriku .

kesukaran .

2008-11-30T15:46:00.003+08:00

Kesukaran yang aku hadapi tidak dapat dibandingkan lagi .
Begitu sukar bagiku tuk hadapi semua ini .
Sukar bagiku melupakan dirimu .
Sukar bagiku tuk berjauhan dengan dirimu .
Sukar bagiku melupakan kenangan indah aku dengan kamu .
Aku tidak ingin dan tidak bisa berpisah dengan kamu .
Kamu begitu penting dalam hidup ku .
Aku cuma ingin kau tahu bahwa kau ialah segala galanya padaku .
Tolong jangan pergi dari hidup ku .
Aku pinta .

Running away .

2008-11-26T14:52:00.003+08:00

I tried to run away from you .
I tried alot of things to avoid you .
But , all that didnt succeed .
The more i tried to avoid you , the more difficult it could be .
i feel that i am nobody to you .
youve changed .
alot .
i never thought of leaving you .
But with your attitude towards me , i felt like running away .
Although running away will not solve anithing , at least i can go out of your life .
Its for our own good .
But , its hard .
its hard to leave our memories together behind .
I dont mind you leaving me , but what i mind is your soul and your heart leaving me all alone .

Memorable

2008-11-21T20:09:00.005+08:00

ahaa !
on the 20.11 , alot of things occured .
i fell !
Lets begin the story with me and hurul cycling the piyo-piyo .
i was cycling while hurul was sitting at the back .
a guy , im not sure how old he is , came from front acting like some kind of professional knock us down .
i lost control and fell badly . and hurul , lied on me .
the guy ran leaving us .
i scolded him .
my leg was badly hurt but luckily hurul's leg is not .
hurul then took over and while cycling up the hill , hurul had no strenght so she stand and cycle .
Guess what , we fell again . blood came out alot .
all the way , we laughed .
it was damn funny .
and now my leg really hurts .

Rindu

2008-10-19T10:25:00.003+08:00

Kerinduan yang telah lama membelenggu diri ini semakin hebat .
Tidakku sangka aku akan merasakan perasaan yang sebegini .
Hari demi hari aku menunggu .
Menunggu kedatangan seorang lelaki yang pastinya akan menyayangi diriku .
Inginku didakapi oleh seorang insan .
Namun , aku takut .
Takut untuk bercinta lagi .
Kerana luka ini masih terasa di hatiku .
Walaupun sebulan kejadian pahit yang telah meluluhkan hatiku berlalu ,
Masih lagi aku merasakan kepedihan , kepahitan , kekecewaan dan juga kehancuran di hati ini .
Sudah pasti bahawa keraguan yang selama ini ku duga semuanya benar .

Memories

2008-10-19T10:18:00.002+08:00

Im still mad at him .
i dont noe why i cant forgive him .
its really hard for me .
Now , im afraid to be with any guy .
Any guy .
No matter how henshem , cute or hot he is ,
im still afraid ..
kinda like phobia .
i dont want to get hurt again .
the heart is still hurt .

end of him !

2008-09-25T19:48:00.002+08:00

well , definitely , im trying to get over him .
Now , im over him by quite alot ...
i aint crying for him anymore !
and even , i cant cry when it comes to remembering him !
thats definitely good right !
muahahaha !
i realised that its no use loving a guy .
not saying that all the guys are all the same .
everything seems to be so perfect in love life without him around here !
its like a relieve and i dont noe why .

* sigh *

2008-09-21T19:40:00.003+08:00

Lia's New dress !
today , i went to GEYLANG .
Nothing speacial happened .
No hot GUYS .
But , get FREE contact lens !
Seriously , today ..
my parents fought !
i was like , wat the F !
it was my mom fault !
she asked my dad to put i dont noe wat ,
but then my dad did the wrong thing .
den my mom scolded my dad !
if she wanted it to be perfect , she should do it on her own !
shes always like that !
Before that , i bought a dress !
weeeee !
atlast !
surprised ?
never see me wear dress before right ?
muahaaaa!
its my first time !
heheeee !
supposingly , i wanted to wear it on your burfday .
ive planned wear to bring you and stuff ...
but then ...
its over between us ...
oohhh wat ever !

Big mistake !

2008-09-20T18:00:00.002+08:00

Ive made a BIG mistake !
thought he was going to treasure me ,
thought his gonna love me ,
thought he was serious with me .
all this are just thoughts.
Thoughts that are IMPOSSIBLE to come true .
Being with you was a great pleasure .
But everything ended up with HATRED between you and me .
You played with my heart .
you make me HATE you .
why did you do all this to me .
if only i knew this would happen ,
i wouldnt gave you the chance .
All i knew right now was you lied to me .
things you saed to me are all lies .
i may have deleted your msges , pics and everything about you.
but i can still remember clearly what you saed to me .
But , after thinking over what you did to me and the things your bestfren saed to me about you ,
might as well i forget about a guy like you .
A guy like you dont deserve a love from a girl .
whats the point with playing with a girl's heart ?
whats your motive ?
i dont understand .
i wont hate you and i wont forgive you either .

kinda miss them .

2008-09-14T19:52:00.009+08:00

in 2008 , ive made quite alot of friends .
one of my group are han , hajar , fiqri ,acap and me .
im the only girl .
we had a group day out at that time .
we spent time together .
we made songs .
there are 2 songs .
one is 'mengapa kau berubah ' and ' oh lia '
they made a song for me .
the third song was on the process .but then we didnt make it .
we all seperated .
each of us are busy with our own things .this is us .
missing hajar !
the funnies thing that happened was we waited for the bus for more than 1/2 an hour and
then we decided to take a taxi .
but its useless .
no taxi wants to take us there (west coast)
and guess wat , we even made a song for the taxis .
hajar and i just sing which we dont know the lyrics but we just put in words that matched the situation .
han and acap just played the guitar while fiqri just laughed .

hahaahaaha !
this is at the busstop we walked very far .
this is mengapah kau berubah .
atlast after walking half way,we sat down an play a song at the side of the road .
and then our bus came .
we had alot of fun !
i miss it !
this is hajar and han .
we even sang in the mrt till ppl look at us with a smile !

the unfairness !

2008-09-06T09:56:00.002+08:00

Its unfair okay !
she asked me to do everything !
what the hell !
all she do is nag !
she is being unfair towards me !
Everything she do is for my first brother !
example 1:
everytime there are my things in the living room ,
she would throw and nag .
But if its my first brother stuffs ,
she would take them and put them NICELY in his bedroom !
even if his around at home !
DOING NOTHING !
example 2:
Like this morning ( 6 september ) ,
my second brother asked money from her .
she said she did not have any money .
and she asked me for money just to give to my second brother !
which i didnt give !
go to hell !
whenever my second brother have money ,
he would be very ignorant !
he would act like he's rich enough to buy things !
and now he have no money ,
so go to hell !
whenever i ask her for money , she wouldnt give me at all .
she didnt even ask my brother for money to give to me !
cant you see it !
how unfair she is !
i wont even ask her for money !
ill find it myself !
yes of cos frm my school pocket money !
have to collect !
everytime she needs money , i am the want who will lend it to her .
but when its my turn to ask for money !
wait long long ar !
There are still more examples actually .
but i cant think of it for now .
To tell the truth , im jealous of my friends .
espeacially faizurah , everything she wants , she'll get it !
every month , her mother would put some money about 100 bucks into her account .
She have alot of clothes.
but as for me ,
i have to collect my own money , to buy my own clothes !
No one really cares about me !
very sad you noe !

3rd sept !

2008-09-03T19:46:00.004+08:00

well , nothing fun exactly happen today ,
just that i am always thinking about my past and everything was so clear !
i cant really get all that off my mind !
but , i am going to be strong !
ohh yeaa !
Today was supposed to be our 1st month but due to our break up for one day , the 1st month will be tml !
And what the hell , i forgot to go to DNT today !
Shit rite ? i noe !

1st Sept !

2008-09-02T10:03:00.003+08:00

1st sept !
1st day of fasting !
well , nothing happened alot in the morning and afternoon .
Except for one stupid thing !
at about 645 pm , im preparing drinks for our break fast .
While im doing it , i accidentally drank the water !
not ONCE but TWICE !
i didnt realise it at all !
my mom saw me drinking and called me .
i was shocked and i shouted 'EH EH !'
heheeehee !
i laughed all the way .
After break fast , at about 8 pm , i went out to meet superman .
it was funny !
but he made me cry !
ahahaa !
he talked about my past which i dont like it .
but i am not mad at him because its not his fault at all .
he didnt know that i am sensitive about my past .
And i gave him a wallet .
A branded one and ORIGINAL okay !
it cost about 60 dollars .
i hope he like it !
=D

=)

2008-08-28T19:02:00.003+08:00

Just got back my progress report !
im sooo happy !
For the first time in my secondary 2 life , i didnt get U grade at all !
i told my love ones with excitement !
And both of them were happy for me !
Ahaa !
third in class !!!
wee !!
im so gonna prove to my family that im the clever one among my brothers !
and guess what , i gt detention today !
fucked up man !
But it was worth it .
atleast i did not waste my time .
i studied frm 2 35 pm until 5 pm !
For only two subjects that is maths and science ..
that stupid chin !
Sheeesshh !

Supermanku !

2008-08-23T18:33:00.002+08:00

Well , im happy with him .
and a few days back , we spent alot of time together .
Such as we took pictures together , we watched movies and all stuff .
Seriously , no one had make me smile all the way .
every morning , when i come to school , my face will always look very moody .
But now , i dont know why , i am always smiling .
Although im with my superman , i cant deny that i still have feelings for another guy . which had change my life too .
this days , i am always thinking of him .
i really dont want him to be att with other girl .
But , how selfish can i be ?
its his life and i cant stop him frm doing things .
i am only his SISTER .
not more than that .
i miss him .
i really do .

Life

2008-08-23T18:04:00.002+08:00

Ahahahhaa !
once again , i havent been loggin in .
too busy .
i hate staying at home okay !
Shes being unfair !
and that makes me feel really terrible .
Whats the point of getting high marks and being one of the top student in class when no one feels proud of my achievements ?
she always make me do things that my brother wants .
Mann , how unfair !

JGN TANYA !

2008-08-11T18:32:00.002+08:00

just dont ask me about this .
Titis lah lagi airmata ini .
mengapa ?
setiap kali kamu hadir dalam hidup in satu persatu ,
airmata ku tidak berhenti henti menitis .
kehadiran kalian semua cuma membuat hati ini terluka .
Terluka .
yar , mungkin aku gembira sekarang tapi , keraguan dan keresahan di hati ini tetap akn bermain di dalam hati ini .
Namun , kehadiran mu , merubahkan segalanya .
tidak pernah seorang lelaki hadir dalam hidup ini dan melayani diri ini sebaik dirimu .
tapi , adakah ianya akan berakhir ?
ya , aku tahu ,
mana mungkin ia tidak akan berakhir .
semua nya akan pergi satu hari nanti walaupun kau tidak mahu .
you attached , you will end up breaking up .
you married , you will end up divorce or die one day .
nothing last forever .
jangan lah kamu pinta untuk putar balik masa kerana ianya tidak guna .
bukan sahaja ianya tidak akan berlaku tapi ,
ia juga cuma akan membawa kesesalan .
REGRETATION !
kesesalan kerana , semua ini adalah lumrah hidup kita .
walau bagai mana kamu benci akan hidup mu , hidup harus di terus kan .
dan , meskipun aku telah membuka hati ini hanya untuk diri mu ,
tidak semestinya kamu bisa saja menghancurinya .
jangan lah kamu menyakiti hati ini .
seandainya saja aku tidak mempunyai sembarang perasaan , tidaklah aku merasakan kesakitan , keperitan , kepedihan dan juga kekesalan hati ini .
aku menyesal kerana jatuh cinta dengan diri mu .
kerna aku tahu aku akan kecewa pada satu hari.
namun , tidak guna aku menyesal kerana , apa yang berlaku tidak akan putar balik .
mungkin , aku hanya harus bersabar dan pikir secara positif .

my new life

2008-08-10T09:44:00.002+08:00

heyy ,
its a long time since i log in .
a lot of things had happen in my life .
both bad and good things .
the bad things are ,
i cant remember !
muaahhaaaa !
seriously , ive decided to forget all the bad things that had happen in my life this past few days .
the good thing is ,
i am leading a happy life right now .
with my superman .
and seriously ,
i dont wanna lose him because losing someone that we love had happen to me alot of times.
Although i know that getting involve in relationships do have the concequences.
and i dont want to lose a guy in my life again.
being in love makes me feel wonderful .

FUCK !

2008-08-01T21:52:00.002+08:00

ahh !
i hate my life !
man ! everything seems different rite now !
yeaahh !
today , all the way , i keep saying alot of vulgarities !
actually not only today laa , but a few days back too !
to my friends , im sorry bcos you were the victims !
i seriously dont know what to do !
everything or anything i did , seems wrong !
WHY ?!
This really sucks !
i feel like crying rite now .
what i just need now is ..
a HUG from a GUY !
i want it , i want it , i want it !
OKAY !
i miss the day i spent with him ..
but he too hurt me .. as in ..
DEEPLY !
i hate the way it is rite now ...
No ones there for me . !

getting hurt again .

2008-08-01T20:33:00.002+08:00

I was hurt again . why ? why me ? this question often play in my mind .
when i heard from your friend that you were att , i was really hurt .
my tears started to roll down , but , i stop them , i dont want my friends to know that i was hurt .
Just now(1 aug 08) , i saw you with her . you werelying down on her lap . i tried to to control myself from crying . and i did it . although it really hurt inside my heart . i cant really take it . guys always came into my life and break my heart .
why ? why ? why ?
does it feel good to hurt someone ? huh ?
and my family sucks okay !

july 30

2008-07-30T21:42:00.004+08:00

July 30 , kinda hate this day .. not only this day but a few days back too ...
Alot of things happened ... First , i hate that bitch ! seriously laaa ! why does she have to tell alot of people abt our fight ?! You want sympathy is it ? i give you tight slap ! what else do you want ? ive already acted as if nothing happen ... But you , fucking asshole bitch , keep trying to make a big fuss about this thing ! FUCK AR ! i dont know until when i can hold on to my anger .. im gonna act as if nothing happen as long as i can .. i dont want to fight with you which i have to be patience about THAT just because of my friends !
Second , my love life ... im totally lost and confused once again .. i dont even know who i really like ..
No one really understand about my feelings ... im so stressed out ! i dont even have time for myself .. ive been so busy this days..
Losing someone really hurt me ..
espeacially that guy .. the impact was very deep .... i dont know why ...maybe because i tried so hard to love him and when i loved him , he left me .. although we still keeping in touch , the memories are still very clear in my heart ... and i tried to stay strong ... and then i was trapped !
Trapped by a guy who healed my heart ! he heal it , but then he broke it ... then , two guys came into my life and , COINCIDENTALLY , they came on the same time and day ! BUSTED rite ? i know .. but each of them had really hurt me ... espeacially HIM ! he lied to me ! he told me he loved me ... but he had girlfriend ! TWO girlfriends ! like FUCK rite ? yaa , i know ! this really hurt me ! TILL NOW !

INTRO !

2008-07-28T19:28:00.000+08:00

well , firstly .. let me intro myself .. im lia .. hehe .. how lame can i be ...
im a simple girl i guess .. actually , i dont really like blogging .. but ..im trying to try something new.
im always a blur sotong ... when i do maths , ill get mad easily .... AMALINA , the girl who sits beside me in my maths class will always be the victim .. ahaahaa ... everytime she talks to me , she ll get scolded by me ... muaahahaa ! how evil can i be !this is amalina (yellow) and me (blue).
Im the shortest girl in my GROUP not CLASS !this is my group , LUNATICS . but this is only the half of us .

okay , till here ..
update next time !
btw , credits to yaat for the skin !